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Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

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Why bother with “Careless Whispers,” and if I remain silent… You should have seen me at the Day Job. Then I stayed late to avoid my Old Man. And I left Virgil to what? And yet there she goes, my beautiful woman saying… “Virgil B Whispering Sometimes”

Wednesday, July 8, 2026

Legacy 007 -Virgil B Whispering Sometimes-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Some I whisper, some I try to wipe out from existence… Thanks for the WARNING, X. And sometimes…

Sometimes I leave Virgil asleep on the ‘couch’. Hell, I would have to put Braxton in timeout. “Hopelessly Devoted,” he was. But he didn’t need to see his perverted father…

And who was I whacking off to this morning? “Lily” and 2B… The Unfinished Archive.

It is their day, Inspector Echo. But Sophitia Alexandra… And of course B III and 2-V’s potential stepmom, M Anime. My Attention, Yabbos and three little words: I Love You.

“I tell them that I love them. I find myself sometimes wanting to tell you that I love you and miss you. Am I allowed to say that? Like when I do miss you cause I haven’t heard from you. Maybe cause I seem too corny and mushy? Maybe I’ll send you running for the hills?”
M Anime

“Well, you can say you love me all you want.”
Me

“Okay. Then yes, Will, I love you.
And I want you to stay!
Like every day. On this Earth.”
M Anime

I was practically begging her this morning after she said it again last night… Love.

Inspector, I could go on and on about her love and how I can’t say it back. What about V?

I’m sure he dreams of a father who loves him. But he whimpers while sleeping.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

And what pray tell was his father doing? Pray tell? Old English… Yeah, I was also whacking it to Beatrice and Dante… Beatrice and Lucifer. Shouldn’t I keep that quiet?

“Love, I do.” Dangerous words. No, that would be what X warned about. Consent, Echo.

But the way M Anime speaks. And no, I won’t betray her like that. She ain’t Rihanna. And the money that would take. I’m sure hardware stores and Tractor Supply sell a bit of that.

My Ravishment fantasies aren’t going anywhere, Inspector. M’s begging Tuesday.

However, I can do a million times worse. Have I gotten around to sharing, Inspector?

Cuckold, NTR (Netorare), Exhibitionism, Hatefuck, Rpe fantasy, a few videos I watched with Braxton’s Favorite Girl but with M? Madness

But a fantasy we’ve whispered in the night. How she plays a retail delivery girl, and I’m an irate customer, and she takes off all her clothes but for her socks… Feet Echo, uh no.

And something else… Then she becomes a “Free Use” delivery girl. Oh my, dear Echo.

Sounds suspiciously like Abbey Rain in “Don’t Tell My Manager!” I looked for that, Echo.

And I’m not ashamed? I am ashamed about how quiet I am at the Day Job. I got no balls.

Or at least let me pretend for a sec, I’m Virgil. Or Effing Elsa from The Menu. Oh no, Echo:

“You will eat less than you desire and more than you deserve”
The Menu (2022)

I won’t be getting paid this week. I’m starving… Kinda. Writing’s going nowhere. A bad father. Virgil B Whispering Sometimes

1984 Days Without B III, Day 1425 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

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“I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive.” How much is left? Oh, the Day Job, Olds, the other kid… Mean to say about V. He’s my son, the same as B. And as Charlie Brown would say, “good grief,” mourning’s tiring. “E Equals BV Scared.”

Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Legacy 006 -E Equals BV Scared-

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? And “fear is the heart.” Now that’s not something I’m sure I believe, my love.

Braxton wasn’t afraid to love me. If anything, he was afraid to leave me. Obsession?

Please! I’ve not seen the film; I love the Animotion song, and as far as the action, V has been quite needy lately. My words, the Olds… You? To be wanted, love. How to explain?

I think about the old Day Job, and when I played “I Don’t Know How to Love Him.” You know from “Jesus Christ Superstar.” “I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus.” My love…

That’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’m thinking more of Jesus with the lepers, love. On the one hand, life’s a game made for everyone, and love is the instruction. But I’m not sure I want to play anymore. REST

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

That’s what I want to do on this rainy day. REST. And at the same time, do you know why “I’m Only Happy When It Rains?” Me… Happy? Never. I am always “Run Boy Run.”

And the rain slows things down. I’m still running. But to me it’s more for once there is time to catch up, time to be with you. Aren’t I with you in one way or another? Especially when you have your yabbos out. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I can, like, I can love.

Honestly though, no man in his right mind will turn down your impressive yabbos, love.

Either Braxton sitting in my lap or you giving me a blowjob. Hardest effing decision.

Love’s effing HARD. And draining…

I have you, love. And as a great man sang, “When you love me I can’t get enough Ah-huh, and I wanna spread the news. That it feels this good gettin’ used Oh, you just keep on usin’ me. Until you use me up.” So by no means am I complaining. “Baby I love you…”

I’m not the dang “The Yayhoos.” As a matter of fact, I feel ashamed because you devote so much of yourself to me. You learn my music, mourn my boy, read my manuscripts, and become the dirtiest minx imaginable when it comes to mattress shenanigans.

However, I fear you’ll one day go all “Life Itself” (Abby) saying something, meaning this:

I love you… but I may not be equipped to be loved this much.
Abby

Or I’ll be empty. Energy’s draining. E Equals BV Scared

1983 Days Without B III, Day 1424 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

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I wish I drank… I couldn’t afford a drug problem these days even if I wanted to. I got my girl onto Bloom. She got me to drink Arih. More Economically Viable. But my real addiction and sickness. Is FEAR… Or words. B’s Botany, V’s Virology

Monday, July 6, 2026

Legacy 005 -B’s Botany, V’s Virology-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Funny. Comedy barks in threes, doesn’t it, Dad? Sadness, Time-out, and the FEAR.

Science. The chemical, the concoction, and the correction that trigger happy to sad. I know

Dad, in my fifteen-plus years with you… When I walked with you, I mean. You were never happy. You were anything but happy. “I ain’t happy, I’m feeling glad.” “Lift me up. Hold me down. Keep me close. Safe and sound.” But happy? Not so much. Effing never. LANGUAGE! I know, Daddy, I know. But want to hear something worse?

According to you at “The Bad Place,” it was my last breath, your first cry in this life, and the knock at the door to let Grandpa in. Won’t Virgil and my potential future stepmom be “happy” Once the third worst sound was her last noise on “The Glow Box”

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

I wanted to say that I didn’t want tears, Dad. But what else would there be? I still remember what you were protecting me from. Boiling blood, Daddy. Your RAGE.

Ironically, that led to a whole new set of chemicals, chaos, and crowding Heaven, right?

The Rainbow Bridge… You can’t put me in time-out anymore, can you, Daddy? And eww!

But how else are you expected to give me and Virgil, our siblings, to protect? But what was it, Dad? 161 days. You didn’t ‘Swear to Jesus’ or anything, but you became a monk, Dad.

Again, isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think, that you protected me from such? Rugrats, reincarnation… And I am most thankful that you didn’t join me. Following you into Hell, Dad

Virgil guided Dante through Hell. Did you ever read that story to me? Kindle Archives…

What about The Unfinished Archive you’ve been writing? The sweat you put into that every single day. I don’t like how tired it makes you. But how often would I lie here beside you as you typed on the Glow Box, “And remember, we’d brag on how rich we would be.” But sweat out of work beats the FEAR that you have been feeling, father.

Energy drinks too. I can’t say I like those either, but Bloom, ‘Bum’ Arih… I guess M Anime has to be good for something. What Dad, I can’t bark her name. She’s not my stepmom…

Yet… Love’s a Chemical. Growing… Infectious… B’s Botany, V’s Virology

“Love is a chemical, nature is radical,
Never is spiritual, it’s never medical…”
― Chemical

“Amor vincit omnia, et nos cedamus amori.”
“Love conquers all things, so we too shall yield to love.”
The Aeneid

1982 Days Without B III, Day 1423 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

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I’ve never been one for the seven seas. Didn’t want to look at my reflection in the water or in a mirror. Hot today, and all I got is a few bottles of water, energy shots, and some strawberry soda. How does that look? “Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE”

Sunday, July 5, 2026

Legacy 004 ~Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE~

To Will:
It’s the Man In The Mirror… And you don’t look much like a pirate, or like a writer. Yes, Aye, Aye, come on.

But you’d rather look at anything other than your face this morning. You even made it down to the Dining Room table. (The Major impression from The Long Walk) That’s a “damn fine accomplishment!” Though you didn’t come down here because “You got sack!” Oh no, no, no! If you weren’t showing the pillar and the stones to Braxton and Virgil’s potential future stepmom, I’d say you were completely bereft of “Sack.” V would know, seeing as how he won’t be going out and making pups anytime soon, ha-ha! Dude!

That’s not funny. Laughing only shows more of your face. Seriously, what do you see?

Honestly, since you’re quoting books/movies today… “The Horror, The Horror.”

Terrifying, horrifying, effing screwed up. Then there’s Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING Sleepover Harem: Part 1: MFFF Harem by Kelli Wolfe –
    Completed
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
    Failed
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
    Failed
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 007 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
    Failed (Day 001 No Fap)
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
    Failed
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am
    Failed

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

It didn’t take your face to see how bad I effed up. Ha-Ha comes in threes, so let’s see, hmm.

Your bank account, your grocery list, lunch/dinner Sat. I was literally counting pennies in the parking lot. And isn’t it “Ironic,” don’t you think? You’re sitting in the exact spot that sucked up lots of cash fighting ants last year. It’s effing ridiculous and scary…

Speaking of ridiculous, your grief? No, not really. But you were walking 2-V this morning and you know his nails need a trim. But to do that means the vet’s appointment. So, “With which hand will you ‘handle this ‘?” The Menu? And do you have to think about food?

Well, if Anime were pregnant? Vacation hours? Six Impossible Things:

  1. I WILL BE VIEWING I Have No Clue Whatsoever
  2. I WILL BE VETTING Pictures, My Braxton’s Life Story
  3. I WILL BE VENDING Gulp: Poetry Book
  4. I WILL BE VOWING To Keep Pants On (Day 001 No Fap). Real Girls Are An Exception
  5. I WILL BE VALUING My Flesh Getting A Tattoo Of My Son Little B III
  6. I WILL BE VALIANT, Being The Man My SONS Think I Am

You’ll burn your vacation hours just to afford “The Bare Necessities.” Or saving 2-V hmm

“Look for the bare necessities, the simple bare necessities
Forget about your worries and your strife
I mean the bare necessities, old mother nature’s recipes
That bring the bare necessities of life”
The Bare Necessities

You’re looking at M Anime all “You’re gonna be the one that saves me. And after all. You’re my Wonderwall. But she looks at you as she should. “A man provides.” Effing provide then. But I know you’ve only been in charge for around ten hours. But it doesn’t matter when you have your sons to consider. You didn’t look after B III. And why?

Fireworks. No! There was fire, no doubt. RAGE the week Braxton died. Lust “Love” for M Anime. Humiliation as you walked Virgil. So the “Fourth Of July,” Sufjan Stevens-style. True.

A day late and a dollar short. So looking for water. Braxton, Virgil, EYE, EYE

1981 Days Without B III, Day 1422 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

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Independence Day… Fascists run my nation. FDT! A slave to FEAR. And while my girl reignites thoughts of fatherhood, what about freedom? Forty-one years and the only time I pop off is for yabbos or effed up thoughts. “Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off.”

Saturday, July 4, 2026

Legacy 003 ~Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off~

Hey, Lady Lu,
I am a Trillionaire right now… And that right there is freedom. Who am I kidding? I’m Elon Musk… I am Negan.

Free me of everything but power, my dear Lady Lunalesca. I read something last night.

“I was no longer free to think like that. After all, freedom was just another word for nothing to lose.”

Rodzil LaBraun… Hell, all of Haremlit ain’t bad. I tend to “hate” reverse harems.

Lunalesca, does that make me a typical guy or what? A basic bro? There’s Vault 68…

Honestly, can’t we start the day with Happy Independence Day!? I would take British rule or an alien invasion over MAGA. Eff MAGA and FDT! You want worse, Lady Luna.

Let me tell you, if it weren’t for the memories of my firstborn son Braxton, Virgil’s life, and the “love” of their potential future stepmom, I would, as Rocko said, “I WILL DO SOMETHING NOT NICE!!! Plus, I don’t like loud noises (e.g., fireworks) and I hate leaving a mess.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Have you seen the house? Lunalesca, have you seen my notes for the Magic Glasses?

Seriously, I spent the better part of the morning trying to “educate” on Nicoletta Goldstein (Nico). Isn’t that one of the freedoms we enjoy? The freedom to see her naked…

Don’t get me started, Lunalesca. Today has been lazy, loud, lustful, and loth… Really Lu?

What about “Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness” all up and through the Declaration of Independence? First, let me explain that I’m just a black man. And dear Lu

This Is America. The best way to put that is America is like my Old Man. Do you want it?

I have spent today escaping to two other worlds, Whiteout Survival and The Unfinished Archive.

That’s where (crap) pops off. And neither of those places is a democracy, a constitutional republic, or whatever, Lady Lunalesca. In Star Wars, I’m Pro-Sith, so I back the Empire…

So as I said before, my Lu, to be Elon Musk with the cash flow. Or TWD’s Negan, the power. But unlike any of the leaders in the good ole U.S. of A… Benevolent Dictator?

Luna, no one would think of Shang Tsung as such. But wisdom… magic in particular, Necromancy… Everything comes back to my Braxton. Freedom from grief? Acceptance, Lady Lunalesca? Never! I will live with my grief. But freedom from FAFO (my consequences), from falling asleep at every opportunity, and especially from FEAR! Not popping either head off. Braxton, Virgil, Pops Off

1980 Days Without B III, Day 1421 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters
Will

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

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How does one define loyalty? I can tell you about love. But last night… The Unfinished Archive, like “Stranger Things,” has its own book of rules. Not even loyal to my own hand anymore. Damn Magic Glasses. And FDT! My boys are loyal. Taking L’s, B, V

Friday, July 3, 2026

Legacy 002 -Taking L’s, B, V-

Hey Lady Sophia,
Let me tell you a story… I finished reading one last night, Dystopian Girls 5 by Rodzil LaBraun. So I’m a liar?

I wish I were Geoffrey Chaucer. Rodzil LaBraun isn’t bad with the Haremlit. Hell! I wouldn’t mind being Johnny Sins. Though his story is, AHEM, see beautiful woman, have sex with beautiful woman, and repeat. Street Blowjobs, Pawn XXX, PureTaboo…

Honestly, the stories, nightmares, and visions that my boys’ potential future stepmom shares are better than anything I got. Because she likes me… Love? Lust? Because she is LOYAL? As loyal as her counterpart in The Unfinished Achieve. Effing incredible!

Talking about her all day… Or would you rather I tell Braxton’s story? Nobody’s buying.

Like nobody’s buying MAGA’s stories. These b*itches ain’t loyal. Who sings that, my lady? Don’t know and I don’t care. I like what I like. I love. I am loyal.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

To everyone but me. This would have been perfect to give you a review of Dystopian Girls 5. But no review today? You see the date. Tomorrow Sophia… “America, America.”

I’ve never been to Santa Fe. I’ve barely seen Washington, D.C. But I love my country, my lady. Eff MAGA, eff White Supremacists, Christian Nationalists, and always and forever FDT! Yeah, I’m so effing loyal that I dream about a zombie apocalypse. Told M Anime:

In my view, everyone is an effing zombie until proven otherwise. I’m loyal to people.

And yet I live in a world where everything I read, write, and watch shows why loyalty is more of a curse than a blessing. On one hand, Braxton, Virgil, Ma, M Anime, Braxton’s Favorite…

More? Okay, two hands. Cherry, my sister, two nephews, Day Job… Am I effing kidding?

Dammit, I wish I were, but “The World Is Gonna End Tonight.” If that were true and again I wish it was, what need would there be for love, lust, and loyalty? One more loss…

Writing? Did I forget how loyal I am to my craft? Where would it stand on The Blackjack Scale? You know where I measure loyalty from 0 to 21. Braxton being the only 21 ever.

Virgil is pretty damn close, 19 at best. M Anime is around the same, dropped last year if you recall. Now I’ve created a world where loyalty is absolute. The Unfinished Archive. Elara, Liora (Names Pending). Taking L’s, B, V

1979 Days Without B III, Day 1420 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

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How do I see this 10th year of blogging? How did I see the other 9? Other than the fact that my firstborn son died during the Gospels and I have been mourning him ever since. 1,314,000 words over 9 years and still eating burgers. B’s Menu Page Virgil

Thursday, July 02 2026

Legacy 001 -B’s Menu Page Virgil-

1978 Days Without B III, Day 1419 of Virgil’s Arrival

Just Me, Baby B,
Did you have a good day? Good day? First day of YOUR legacy, and how does your father feel? I wish…

You don’t know how badly I wish I could go all Kenny Loggins singin’ “I’m alright. Nobody worry ’bout me.” Now that second part is true… Well, if I don’t count you, Virgil, and you boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. But the first part is more Pilot Speed, you know, “I’m not alright, I’m not alright!” Is that what my dream was saying last night, B? I don’t remember what I was carrying in the dream. Baggage? Something, “Fancy.”

Anyway, I was wandering around a parking lot all “Dude, Where’s My Car?” I know…

SIGH, you hated car rides. They scare your brother nearly to death too. Virgil? Scared?

Like father, like son, right? Should have seen me at the gas station and food truck yesterday. Who sells courage?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

We can’t all be you, unfortunately, my son. “Can’t nobody tell me nothin’. You can’t tell me nothin’.” You on that “Old Town Road,” Braxton? Renaming The Rainbow Bridge, ha

As for your Old Man, I’m still all, “My life is a movie, (fur buddies) and boobies.” One more reason I’m getting to you so late. I only know what makes my stomach less achy and my scrotum less full… Eww! I don’t know where I’m going in life, with this litany of nonsense, or even in a little while. But putting you in time-out and taking my alone time? I always know what’s on “The Menu.” Oh, did I tell you I finally got that cheeseburger… Not Chef Slowik’s

Yeah, I think I’ll stick with shrimp and buffalo wings, along with CHEESE fries, not RANCH! Again, nobody sells courage. It’s not something usually on “The Menu” B III ha.

So what is? What will this new year bring? What will be your Legacy? Other than a father yelling out his complaints about the world, your stepmom’s Yabbos. And yellow…

Honestly, Braxton, I am sorry your father is starting this brand new year being a yellow-belly coward and thinking about two yellow girls he wants to eff (Asian women). I don’t ever want to MAGA. I want to be honest. The Unfinished Archive/Magic Glasses say it’s Melina and Judy Alvarez today. Your Daddy’s always hungry for bread, babes, and brains. Zombie. B’s Menu Page Virgil

It feels like I’m dying. I’m so scared all the time.” ― Mara, Spontaneous (2020)

Always and Forever,
Your Dad

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

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“The Menu” for this final Journey? Asking my belly, my woman, or my wallet? Ask the Magic Glasses. But I need to ask the “Man In The Mirror” to “Git Up, Git Out.” Can I ask Chef Slowik for a Cheeseburger, or an apple? Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

Journey 365 -Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil-

Bless Me, Echo,
For I have sinned… Today I will try to stick to the sin of SLOTH, over my favorite sin LUST. And worst?

TREACHERY, The Ninth Circle of Hell. And that’s what I will be going for, Inspector.

May my Braxton rest in peace and power. Hell, I call upon his soul every Monday. And I speak to him every Thursday, so he talks a lot. You want to hear some talking? You should meet my boys’ potential future stepmom, M Anime. She keeps me up plenty, Echo.

I mean, in quite some good ways. If this were the Garden of Evil, and I were Adam, I’d be handing my Eve, my M Anime, the apple myself. Take that and do as you will. Or as my girl might say, “Take me and do as you will.” I swear this woman of mine. But she ain’t Moloko, Inspector.

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

You know “Sing It Back?” But what’s with all this talking about eating and singing?

Honestly, and I haven’t mentioned blowjobs yet! I’m trying, Inspector. I’m trying real HARD… Can I stop already? But Gluttony and Sloth go hand-in-hand. Well, they did in the Succubus Lord series by Eric Vall: the sisters Gula (Gluttony), Tristitia (Sloth).

Seriously, don’t crap on my Latin, Inspector Echo. It’s what the books say. And before we get to reading, good thing I started doing that before answering, woman, Inspector…

This woman of mine, or as Braxton might say, “This B*tch.” I believe Braxton would love her, though, and Virgil would resign himself to his fate: Virgil’s effing quiet, Inspector.

Anyway, M Anime loves music too. It’s wow I communicate.

Um, Bumblebee in Transformers. As she puts in all this time learning about me, I tell her all the time, I’m a man of leisure. A damn sloth or lazy bum? So I sat here yesterday kind of stuck listening to her tunes but wanting to be one of The Yayhoos “Baby I love you…”

Or give me some “Poor Sweet Baby.” On The Long Walk I’m effing hungry and too lazy to do anything but walk… Well, write. And even now I got the Magic Glasses creating a schedule for my own harem. Today is Sophitia and 2B’s day—the 365th day of Journeys.

What comes next? Horizons or Legacies? This isn’t the garden, Balamb, or Eden. No apples. FOOD! Guardin’ Braxton and Virgil

1977 Days Without B III, Day 1418 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

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I’m down for a dance. Last time I did that, I got drunk on E-Day. I’m down for games, for gaining a following ha-ha, or for getting my balls… You know, maybe I should just be down for crying about my boys again. Because any joy? Virgil B Getting Down

Tuesday, June 30, 2026

Journey 364 ~Virgil B Getting Down~

Dear Future Wife,
You know that I love you, right? Dancing not so much. Please don’t ask me to watch “Dancing With The Stars”. But…

“May I Have This Dance”? I wish I did feel like dancing. Wedding, parties, everything.

But ask me how I’ve felt these past few ‘days’. Hell! How do I feel right at this moment, this very second? I’m going to sound STUPID. You know, SIGH, it’s not you, it’s me.

Beautiful, take “The Freshman” I once was. “The Verve Pipe,” really? Anyway, my freshmen year all the way through high school and junior college. Then the “second” worst day of my existence, being born, E-Day. Then the actual worst day, that was when B left this world. “I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow”. And asking you to “Follow Me.”

Well, you can’t pretend we both ain’t got our “Issues”. But me being Bipolar. Diagnosis?

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

Years upon years ago. And only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to my type of crazy, my love. It could be worse. Virgil has had to put up with me a lot longer. B did 15 years.

But you, my “Always and Forever”. I couldn’t give you something that no woman hasn’t had before… Uh… First time a woman let me try… ANAL. I miss A.J. Markam’s “Succubus” series. But that’s another story, really. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah, you’re the first woman that let me go bareback, which of course explains our kids, hmm.

Two-legged ones. But Virgil and the kitties are our kids too. We got a lot of doors to lock when you and I get down.

And that’s my point today. That I keep imagining you as a naked nun with a crucifix necklace and I’m a dirty priest. Trust me, I can go lower or you can. The Magic Glasses told me the other day I love BJ’s… Uh, and we need air to breathe. Not to mention I’ve nearly built a religion or mythology around my balls and your boobs. While I just bawl…

“My boys, my boys!” I’m still crying about Braxton and constantly down about my Virgil.

And how can I ask you to live with that? My world is like eternal night. What is this, Treno from Final Fantasy IX? I want to cry one minute, cum the next, then cower. Somehow, Virgil B Getting Down.

1976 Days Without B III, Day 1417 of Virgil’s Arrival

B.L.M. Braxton’s Life Matters,
Will

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

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“Get busy living or get busy dying.” Both take time. Be it lying in a bed in the middle of a garden surrounded by food (B’s Paradise) or lying in bed with my girl “Chasing Cars”. Sitting on a beach watching my two-leggeds play. “Virgil Will B Sooner”

Monday, June 29, 2026

Journey 363 -Virgil Will B Sooner-

Hey Dad,
It’s me, Baby B. Did you have a good day? Good Day? You only wish the day would end sooner. Stop it, Dad!

You wish I were there, sitting beside you. Stop that, too! Only it’s been five years, Sunday, January 31, 2021. The oldest of my kind was 31. Talk about faith. You expected me to make it to 20. And I would be 21 this year. Virgil will be 6. But he needs help very soon.

“Try to kill us. But know two things. One, I do not die easily. And two, you must also kill my (son), because I will not leave this earth without (him).”
The Walking Dead, Alpha

Don’t go cursing my little bro, Dad. I know you care about him. Love? How soon did you love me, Dad? How soon did I love you? If we had to compare notes. Seriously notes…

When He Loved Me, Dad

1: Love At First Sight, Arrival

  1. When you called my name, and I jumped in the car
  2. When we fought the Old Man. Me in front of you

“Pinch me, pinch me
‘Cause I’m still asleep
Please, God, tell me
That I’m still asleep.”
Barenaked Ladies ‧ 2000

When He Loved Me, Braxton

  1. When I ate your breakfast and earned the name “Pancake”
  2. When you came back for me after months
  3. When you sat with me, and I fell asleep

Don’t have to worry about losing those. You were telling me and V’s potential future stepmom today that you had a dream about Molly Ringwald… Topless. Aww geez Dad, gross! But I know you. And soon there’ll be no potential future. She’s V’s stepmom period.

Sooner rather than later… And if M Anime has your son, me and Virgil’s brother…

Honestly hope she knows you’re naming him Braxton. Still a reason 2-V wasn’t my reincarnation. Too soon to bring in Halloween Horrors or Christmas Classics. But still act soon, Dad.

“So don’t delay, act now; supplies are running out”
Walkin’ on the Sun, Smash Mouth

Time, and it’s not even your time that you’re worried about. Well, surely, honestly, okay.

You didn’t raise me to be a liar. And still much too soon. There was so much more, I know.

I protected you at 21. But protecting my two-legged siblings. “What’s My Age Again? And what about yours, Dad? Again, “Time Is Running Out.” It all comes back, Daddy, always.

Wondering what you can ask one pair of the Magic Glasses on the “Glow Box”. Asking when you can ask another pair of the “Magic Glasses” to show you me, Virgil, M Anime, our family. Barks Danny Glover from 2021: “Make Time!” Or since I was a prince, I can bark Prince Hector: “Make It Sooner!” Virgil Will B Sooner.

“I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. I didn’t know I’d love you so much. But I do.”
Shilo ― Nathan, Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008)

“No day shall erase you from the memory of time.”
— Virgil (Book 9) The Aeneid

1975 Days Without B III, Day 1416 of Virgil’s Arrival

Always and Forever,
Your Son